Where Do I See Myself Five Years From Now?

I am 39 years old, I hate it everyday. I know that this can never change. White hairs on my head and beard. My son asks difficult questions and then seem I’m pretty dumb. Am I HAPPY? 

The older I get, the more I need to know the usefulness of life. When I am in my grave, what will people say then? What happens after a week, a month, a year? Are they going to forget me? This pressure always frustrates me. I’ve been now thinking, is it too late for me to start afresh or can I do something about this?
So, I’ve taken my own life to be a lab rat to be tested to see if anyone can become successful during their mid-life crises. To test this, I’m going to share them every freaking thing to you. Three aspects of my life that I should focus, structure, and build. This way, I can ensure that my life is having a meaning. I’m going to share with you how I am doing in life. It’s always good to see how people have become something once they have achieved them. But in my case, I want to share my progress and how things are. If you follow me, you will get to know my ups and downs, whether I have really improved or totally screwed up. You are my mirror and want to see if this works or just another productivity thought in my head.

The three levels of living right are

1. Work
2. Personal
3. Church

Work: There are more days I don’t want to go than I want to. I hate myself thinking into this. I just don’t have Monday blues, but the whole week blues. I am to be blamed for that. I need to push myself to get to work. But what does that mean if I really need to love work. I just cannot randomly love work because I feel it. I need to create an environment that will help me to get there. So this is what I have placed my bet on.

1. Promodoro Technique – I have a severe ADD and can’t focus more than a gold fish. The attention span goes south when I need to be in a meeting or focus on something that is very important for me. I just read that the Promodoro technique helps me to focus and be a better person. This way I can push myself to work effectively and efficiently. Now, does that motivate me? I really don’t know. I want to try this for a month and tell you the results. 
2. Have minimum meetings – My colleague teases me if I am here to conduct meetings or work. I keep having meetings one after another and at the end of the day look back and don’t seem to get anywhere. Have only one short meeting that will help me to focus on what was addressed in the meeting to move forward.
3. Create one new project every quarter – My office has given us the privilege to think out of the box. But sometimes I get this feeling of wanting to be part of every project. This gets crazy everyday. Once the project is complete, review and check where you are and identify wins and losses. Move the next one when you are ready.

PERSONAL

1. I reach home at 6pm almost everyday. I don’t want to watch TV, fiddle with my phone, or read. I spend my time with my family. Give all my energy to my 10 year old and my wife. Listen to all their stories. Put my son to bed by 8pm and chat with my wife till she knocks me off to sleep by her talks 😄
2. Wake up everyday at 5am. Spend time in prayer and reading the Bible. Right now, I am seeking God for revival in my own life and for our church. Give all it takes for God to intervene in my own life because he brings meaning to me and not my own self.
3. Spend time in writing and reading. Earlier, I read and wrote whatever I felt good about. Now, I probably write whatever comes to my mind and then edit. However, I want to intentionally read and write to effectively become a writer. 
4. Until I am an accomplished writer, I will work my ass out. I loved the book Originals by Adam Grant where he tells of great writers who did not leave their jobs to follow their passions. Some took time until they were ready to venture in.

CHURCH

1. Church plays a significant role for me and my family. We are rooted in church as I believe God has called us to be part of His church and community. I lead songs in church and am an associate pastor. Me and my wife also lead the youth meeting.
2. Our present youth meeting sucks and no one is interested in attending our meeting. We have these once every month. No one really want to be part of this group and I am fully to be blamed. But, I want to see this grow and equip my youth to become pillars of the church. Right now, they are chandeliers in the church and want to look beautiful that way. If anyone throws a stone, they are fragile and break. 

What do I see myself five years from now?
By 2025, I want to be an accomplished writer. I want to be listed among top 20 famous Indian writers.

This is a big ask, but why not? Here is how I want to get this done:

a. By 2020 December, I would want to have over 3000 followers to my blog. This means, you play a huge part to continue to stay with me.

b. By 2021 December, I would have written over 700 blogs and do a much better job than my current lousy writing. I also am researching Indian writers (unfortunately, I have read only very few books by Indian authors)

c. By 2022 December, I can train people to become better writers and conduct workshops. I may still continue to work (My work is my ministry).

d. By 2023 December, I want to complete five workshops on writing. Travel to five different countries.

e. By 2024 December, I will be ready with my first draft for my first book.

f. By 2025 December, I would want to publish my book.

What are your dreams? I’d love to know. Please comment below and share them as we walk along on this path.